Again i faile in the war...........!!!!!!!!

I again failed it the war of my life. I lost a good job again coz of my ear problem. I dont know why god created me like this. Even if i try hard to win. I loose those god things in my life which is needed to move on. just lost.......!!!!!!!!!

For the day..........

It is the hottest day I had ever felt... keep on sweating under the fan.. It had to pass the day.. I don't know ... how to move on... again loneliness hunting me hard than before. I don't know were is life going to be. Its hard to move on. Just a day.. with plenty of surfing. lots had to be done but cant make it fine. just like to have a swim in the river. nothing more to go. today some old guys called me. but i was not able to talk through phone. so i just didn't attended just mailed them and SMS-ed the guys no replay back.

Rain.............!!!!!!!!!

Today after some long summer days it raining out side a little heavy. I am watching it form my office window. its so nice to see.. that.. But one thing is that I want to hear the sounds of water falling but i cant.. how hard I try.. for that put my both earphone but I cant find any sweetness in that which I found on my olden days. When I was young enough, I was with my grand maa.. a old home at that time I was able to hear all those things. lots of thing enjoyed. falling water for tree trug crying frog. and all now I cant. Missing all those things. now... I rally want to walk in rain now. just to walk a long. yes now form my window I can see the orange sky through the coconut laves. its nice to have that view. Some tree I don't know its English name its 'vaga' in malayalam. is flowered. the sky looks so beautiful int background. Today was little bit OK for me.