At last a win.... !!!

At last a win... after many years... but again left alone through out my life.. like a bird i still want to fly high..... Dear god. Give me the strength... Give me the power to move forward.. To win. my life.. I don't want to be a failure any more...

Again i faile in the war...........!!!!!!!!

I again failed it the war of my life. I lost a good job again coz of my ear problem. I dont know why god created me like this. Even if i try hard to win. I loose those god things in my life which is needed to move on. just lost.......!!!!!!!!!

For the day..........

It is the hottest day I had ever felt... keep on sweating under the fan.. It had to pass the day.. I don't know ... how to move on... again loneliness hunting me hard than before. I don't know were is life going to be. Its hard to move on. Just a day.. with plenty of surfing. lots had to be done but cant make it fine. just like to have a swim in the river. nothing more to go. today some old guys called me. but i was not able to talk through phone. so i just didn't attended just mailed them and SMS-ed the guys no replay back.

Rain.............!!!!!!!!!

Today after some long summer days it raining out side a little heavy. I am watching it form my office window. its so nice to see.. that.. But one thing is that I want to hear the sounds of water falling but i cant.. how hard I try.. for that put my both earphone but I cant find any sweetness in that which I found on my olden days. When I was young enough, I was with my grand maa.. a old home at that time I was able to hear all those things. lots of thing enjoyed. falling water for tree trug crying frog. and all now I cant. Missing all those things. now... I rally want to walk in rain now. just to walk a long. yes now form my window I can see the orange sky through the coconut laves. its nice to have that view. Some tree I don't know its English name its 'vaga' in malayalam. is flowered. the sky looks so beautiful int background. Today was little bit OK for me.

ariyila eniku onnum......

Veruthe enatheum pole... suriyan udichu... apol patiye ente jalakthi arukil nan ninu.. kazhinjupoya oru nalukal oru maza ayi peyathu... erangi ente masilude... eniku mazha estham anu... verute.. nadakan mazhiyilode... avayude sriangaral kelkan... mazthuli velaketukalude edayil vezubol ula sangeetham kelkan... pukshe eniku onum kelkan kaziyilla... ha ha... Its a life.... shabdhagal ilata logathu anu nan... elam kannannu.. veru muga sopnam pole... jevidham veruthe pazh-vasthu vayi marannu... poruthi, jeyuikan vendi.. apozhum tholkuka ayirinnu... niraye... nedan oru padu sremichu... but.. elayidathum tholvikal ayirinnu... niraye tholvikal.... angane vendum nan jalak vathilin arukil thrichu vannu... vendum sopnangal nayathu.. pukshe... vendum.... avide you maranju poya moga sopnangal pole ale jevidham...

Arukum varan kaziyilla ente kochu logathu...valarathe muradichu poya masum... oru pidi munil valarnu poya chotupadum... 30 kaldu aduthitum kavmaram vidatha maanasum...... oru... logam... mooga logam...

Odvil elam tholivkalilum.... kotinu varumbol... onu kochu logathu pogannam... ente mathram kochu logam... nan mathram ula kochu logam.. kayi pidikan poluma arum undavilla.. arum... veruthe.. muga sopnangal... mathram... angu akale vinil mini marauna nakshathrangale eni edukannam... marodanakannam....

kochum kachu pidi vashikalum konjalukalum.. elam nirnaja logam eno kayi vitu pokan oruguka ya ... ariyilla... arukil chearthu vechu.snegichathu elam aro thati parichu kondu pokunathu pole.. evide youm oru.. santhatha.. shunyatha... entho.... ninavukal niranja.. kaneer padukal niraja logam... nenjodu cherthu maradu anakumbolum... veruthe... ashichu pokannu.... orklegilum... Elam..

Ente Logam

E logathillll Prenayam nalgatha onum ila... Athinte kezhiyil.. nan mathram ena logam illa.. Snegathinte... saganathinte.. oru maya logam.... I love it....... To be mine.... and To be....